Thank you for taking the time to read my Blog. My intention is to provide you with some "road markers" to help you in your journey into private worship. I believe what I am about to share with you will encourage you to keep on pressing in.
The experience I am about to describe to you took place Wednesday, March 20. Earlier that day as I was trying to determine how the Lord wanted me to spend my time with Him, I was impressed to spend some extended time in private worship. For those of you who think that is all I do, that is not the case. I try to be sensitive to the leading of the Holy Ghost and spend my time with Him as He directs. This day that meant giving extended time to worship.
My time today began as usual, somewhat dry and uneventful. You just have to train yourself to get used to that aspect of private worship. If you are looking for feelings, I'm sorry to say, you will most likely be disappointed. Private Worship is a kind of discipline in which you should not begin with preconceived ideas of what your time with Him will be like. Instead, just expect the usual and then when something exceptional happens rejoice because it will probably be a while before something else happens.
So, as I sat and did my best to focus all my attention on the Lord, the minutes turned into hours. Then, something seemed to begin to change. It was like I was surrounded by what I can only describe as figures in some kind of white gowns. No, I did not see any faces and I wasn't seeing them in the natural, but rather in the spirit. As I looked at the line of figures suddenly, I was looking at Jesus and it was like I stepped out of one room and into another. As I looked at Jesus, again in the spirit, this overwhelming sense of "no fear" came over me and I new for that split second that he could send me anywhere in the world without any fear at all, none. My emotions seemed to be suspended and fear was absolutely no where to be seen. I knew for those few seconds what it felt like to be in His presence and be totally free of fear. It was an amazing few seconds.
Afterwards, I had the opportunity to share this event with Pastor Dave Roberson who explained how my experience was like the one he had where he stepped into that room from a moment.
This is what is available if you are willing to press in and not stop. For me, I believe this is just the beginning of what is available. I want to encourage you to keep on and don't stop because it is definitely worth the investment.
Monday, March 25, 2013
Friday, January 11, 2013
Pain Free With Private Worship
I am so excited to share the following account with you because I know that this truth has the potential to change your life forever. The reason for my excitement is because what I'm about to share is not a theory that I think will work for you, but is in fact something that I have experienced for myself.
I am learning more and more about the potential available in "Private Worship". You will notice that I'm not someone who feels the need to post something just for the sake of posting. I'm not on any kind of schedule. I only post something when I learn new benefits available through "Private Worship". Personally, I am a little wary when there appears to be some need to post every little thing that happens or every little thought that dances through someone's mind. But, that might just be me.
That being said, here is what I have learned. One morning earlier this week symptoms suddenly began to come on me which I have become all too familiar with over the years. From time to time, for no reason that I know of, my vision will begin to be impaired. My field of vision becomes very limited and a good portion of my line of sight is blurred. Once this begins, I know that it is only a matter of time before I am experiencing intense pain in my head. In the past, I have come against the symptoms and told them to leave me, but almost always I have ended up with the severe headache, anyway.
The enemy loves to build on those kind of prior experiences. It is his desire to convince us that there is something seriously wrong with us by building a case in our minds with real life experience as our evidence. As we sit there right in the middle of an attack the devil will remind us of how we have had these same symptoms for years and how they are not going away but, instead, they are getting worse. Whether or not they are actually getting worse is not the point, the point is that to reinforce his case he wants you to believe they are getting worse.
As I sat in my chair at my desk, the headache began. Understand, these headaches aren't like regular headaches. I guess they might be in the category of being considered a migraine. I hesitate to get into "labels" because people can get all hung up on thinking they have to have a name for something in order to get rid of it and that is not the case. I honestly don't know what it is that attacks my head this way. I know what the devil wants me to believe. The devil wants me to believe that the same thing that attacked my older brother when he was a child is the same thing attacking me. He had a brain tumor at age 2 which ended in his death. Now, I can either live in fear of something like that trying to attack me, or I can do what is necessary to stay alive and fulfill my call.
So, what did I do? I walked into our family room and sat down on the couch and put something over my eyes to block the light because of the pain and I started to worship the Lord. I was not thanking Him for healing me, per say, I was just worshipping the Lord. All I said was, "I worship you Jesus". I know that sounds too simple, but that is exactly what I did. All the while this movie is playing in my mind of this thing progressing to something much worse. I usually take aspirin the moment my vision becomes impaired because I know what is coming. This time, I did not. This time I went another route. To my own surprise, I never took any aspirin. I am not opposed to medicine. Take whatever you need to take. But, ask yourself this, if at some time there is no medicine that will correct whatever is wrong with you will you have enough faith in something other than the medicine to heal you? That is the question that came up inside of me. So, I continued to sit and worship Jesus. Then, the most amazing thing happened. Suddenly, the pain just simply left. You have to understand, this kind of pain would usually last for quite a while and generally I would just try to sleep it off. Not this time, suddenly, I took the cover off my eyes and the pain was gone. Glory to God. Simply worshipping the Lord has brought me to the place that right in the midst of an attack I can raise my hands and worship Him and the pain will disappear. That is some very good news.
I am so excited by this new discovery. I know that there is unlimited potential available to us in "Private Worship". We just need to tap into it for ourselves.
~ Blessings
I am learning more and more about the potential available in "Private Worship". You will notice that I'm not someone who feels the need to post something just for the sake of posting. I'm not on any kind of schedule. I only post something when I learn new benefits available through "Private Worship". Personally, I am a little wary when there appears to be some need to post every little thing that happens or every little thought that dances through someone's mind. But, that might just be me.
That being said, here is what I have learned. One morning earlier this week symptoms suddenly began to come on me which I have become all too familiar with over the years. From time to time, for no reason that I know of, my vision will begin to be impaired. My field of vision becomes very limited and a good portion of my line of sight is blurred. Once this begins, I know that it is only a matter of time before I am experiencing intense pain in my head. In the past, I have come against the symptoms and told them to leave me, but almost always I have ended up with the severe headache, anyway.
The enemy loves to build on those kind of prior experiences. It is his desire to convince us that there is something seriously wrong with us by building a case in our minds with real life experience as our evidence. As we sit there right in the middle of an attack the devil will remind us of how we have had these same symptoms for years and how they are not going away but, instead, they are getting worse. Whether or not they are actually getting worse is not the point, the point is that to reinforce his case he wants you to believe they are getting worse.
As I sat in my chair at my desk, the headache began. Understand, these headaches aren't like regular headaches. I guess they might be in the category of being considered a migraine. I hesitate to get into "labels" because people can get all hung up on thinking they have to have a name for something in order to get rid of it and that is not the case. I honestly don't know what it is that attacks my head this way. I know what the devil wants me to believe. The devil wants me to believe that the same thing that attacked my older brother when he was a child is the same thing attacking me. He had a brain tumor at age 2 which ended in his death. Now, I can either live in fear of something like that trying to attack me, or I can do what is necessary to stay alive and fulfill my call.
So, what did I do? I walked into our family room and sat down on the couch and put something over my eyes to block the light because of the pain and I started to worship the Lord. I was not thanking Him for healing me, per say, I was just worshipping the Lord. All I said was, "I worship you Jesus". I know that sounds too simple, but that is exactly what I did. All the while this movie is playing in my mind of this thing progressing to something much worse. I usually take aspirin the moment my vision becomes impaired because I know what is coming. This time, I did not. This time I went another route. To my own surprise, I never took any aspirin. I am not opposed to medicine. Take whatever you need to take. But, ask yourself this, if at some time there is no medicine that will correct whatever is wrong with you will you have enough faith in something other than the medicine to heal you? That is the question that came up inside of me. So, I continued to sit and worship Jesus. Then, the most amazing thing happened. Suddenly, the pain just simply left. You have to understand, this kind of pain would usually last for quite a while and generally I would just try to sleep it off. Not this time, suddenly, I took the cover off my eyes and the pain was gone. Glory to God. Simply worshipping the Lord has brought me to the place that right in the midst of an attack I can raise my hands and worship Him and the pain will disappear. That is some very good news.
I am so excited by this new discovery. I know that there is unlimited potential available to us in "Private Worship". We just need to tap into it for ourselves.
~ Blessings
Thursday, May 3, 2012
Enjoying A Moment Of Heaven With Jesus
After a few weeks of "Blog Silence", the Holy Ghost has instructed me that it is time to share what I have been learning.
For everyone looking for some "secret formula" that magically opens the heavens and causes God to fill your presence with His Glory all I can say to you is, "there is no formula".
I came into Private Worship initially looking at the results being produced and wanting those results. I watched Pastor Dave Roberson growing in Private Worship and witnessed the fruit developing as a result of his time with Jesus and I am not ashamed to say that I liked what I saw and wanted it.
Being the kind of person that I am, I went at Private Worship determined to get the same kind of results and willing to do whatever was necessary to get them. For example, Pastor Dave would just walk into the sanctuary and the presence of God would be so strong that people would begin to cry and inner healing would take place. Once I experienced some of that inner healing for myself I knew I would do whatever was necessary to walk in that kind of anointing.
Pastor Dave described hours alone worshipping the Lord with no music. He said the atmosphere was dry with seemingly nothing happening other than the words of worship falling to the ground.
Determined as I was to have results like I witnessed in Pastor Dave, I stuck it out and gradually the richness and the presence began to manifest. Early on as I ministered and shared about my times with Jesus I was often unable to contain the tears. Uncontrollable crying would come over me. I was beginning to see the very tip of what Private Worship could produce.
As time has passed, somewhere along the way it dawned on my lighting fast mind that the results I am enjoying today from Private Worship aren't necessarily exactly what I expected. Remember, I was after "results", the thick presence of God filling an auditorium in which I was ministering. Don't get me wrong, I still want to see those times where my relationship with Jesus results in Him being able to manifest Himself in such a way that others are forever changed. But, now I realize that my real heart motivation early on was for the awesome presence of God to manifest in order to validate my ministry and my accomplishments. In other words, the motivation of my heart was not so much about my love for others and a desire to see them blessed as it was to impress them with what I had accomplished in the "spirit" and for that to confirm in their minds that I was truly anointed of the Lord. How's that for a bit of honesty? You will find that if you are really serious about the things of God and fulfilling His plan for your life, there will be times like this where He will have you face your own shortcomings and let the world share in your learning experience.
I know He wants me to see just how shallow that thinking really was. Jesus never wanted me to excel in Private Worship so that the end result would be that my flesh would be exalted. You are going to find that the closer you get to Jesus the more the light that shines out of Him will expose all your wrong motives.
So, how was He finally able to bring me to this place where I could finally see "me" where I really am? It has been a gradual progression. As I look back, I can see that what He did first was to show me what He is really interested in is me developing a loving fellowship with Him, how He did this was so interesting. Somewhere along this path God began to, randomly, get my attention and for those moments it was like, "oh hey God, I do really love You." These encounters were brief and then be over, but in that moment He had my undivided attention and I knew something was happening between us. Over time these short little encounters have continued. They weren't every day occurrences, but when they happened I realized just how special these occasions with Him are. Now I know, these brief moments with Jesus are actually the long lasting fruit that Private Worship produces and this is really what you are after. Why? Because finally you have given Him enough of yourself to fellowship with that He can come and for however long you and He can enjoy a moment of "heaven" together. Yes, you want this. Not to impress others with how "spiritual" you are, but to breathe a breath of "Heaven"with Jesus, wherever He happens to choose, because you have provided Him what is needed for this to happen through your Private Worship.
I thoroughly expect these encounters to not only continue, but to increase in frequency and length. I believe as I provide Him with more of me to fellowship with the result will be more fellowship. Obviously, more fellowship with Jesus will result in more of His presence in me around me upon me to the point that others will be blessed by His presence.
I hope this encourages you to stay in there and keep worshipping Jesus and watch for Him to come and visit you.
~Blessings
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